LETTER of a DISAPPOINTED FAN...

DISCLAIMER: I know this is a late post and a delayed reaction. Oh! Actually, hindi ko naman ito matatawag talagang delayed reaction kasi I am one of the many first who saw his tweet saying:

@nicobesalva: Finally the boring football game on aktv is over. Now can u show the pba game already?

So, I am posting this blog entry to air-out my sentiments. I am sorry if I will be hurting some feelings. Nasaktan lang naman din ako. Pasensiya na. Also, this is not to insult or any. I just want him to understand the feelings of all football supporters who read his tweet that night.

Dear Mr. Nico Salva,

                I follow you on twitter because I admire you as a basketball athlete. I honestly see so much potential in you that I hope one day to see you play in our Philippine National Basketball Team. But, seeing and reading your tweet last December 12, 2012; 3 minutes after the Philippine Azkals game against Singapore, I felt so disappointed and distraught in you.

                Nalungkot talaga ako seeing an uprising athlete that I believed in so much calling football as boring. Nakakawala ng respeto sa totoo lang, lalo na at National team ng Pilipinas ‘yon which supposedly lahat tayong Filipino ay sinusuportahan. The team already lost a chance to win another victory for the country. Tapos, nag-tweet ka pa ng ganoon. Where is respect in there? You came from a well-respected university and basketball team pa naman and you already have a name in the arena.

                Worst, inbes na mag-sorry ka, you simply tweeted for us to chill and relax kas you said you are not a football fun. I gave you that. I do understand your side. The thing is, respeto man lang sana. Nakakainsulto ‘yong twitter post mo na ‘yon at mas okay sana if nag-sorry ka na lang. Kaso wala eh. Lumala pa ang issue.

                As a football supporter and that night, everyone of as were grieving because of the National team lost. Bad enough for us and the country. Kasi kahit ano ang sabi naming okay lang ‘yan, bawi na lang next time, hindi pa rin mai-aalis sa puso naming and maiyak, masaktan at malungkot. At sa ginawa mo, parang nabugbog na nga kami, eh binugbog mo pang lalo. Masakit ‘yon kahit sabihing you never intended to do it.

                As an athlete you know too well kung gaano kasakit na masabihang boring ang sports na nilalaro mo. And coming from you, that is simply plain stupidity and ignorance. Parang ikaw lang ‘yong mga representatives na bumubuto ng NO sa RH Bill na kapag pinag-explain ng boto, wala naming katuturang paliwanag ang binibigay. Kung baga, worthless na nga, weightless pa. I am sorry sa comparison.

                I can’t blame you. Sana nagging sensitive ka man lang that night. Ang nakakahiya pa ay tinawag mo na fug si Justin Bieber because he insulted our Pambansang Kamao. Eh! Wala ka namang pinagkaiba sa kanya.

                Haist! I just wish you will not play in the National Basketball Team. Supporter pa naman din ako and I don’t want to be disappointed again. And hear this, everytime makikita kitang naglalaro ngayon with your team, mapapataas-kilay na lang ako. I doubt if kaya pa kitag kabiliban this time.

                Anyway, have a good luck to your basketball career.

                                                                                                                                From your disappointed fan,

                                                                                                                                                RHEIYA FERL

LAST TEARS, LAST GOODBYE….

“Goodbye means going away, and going away means forgetting. “ --- Peter Pan

                Nobody said saying goodbye is easy. Farewell is always the hardest decision to make. But when it is fate that ordains goodbye, the heart, no matter how painful it is, bids and let go. Holding on and hoping have no used because it is the heart that feels exhausted of waiting and hurting. Simply, the hearts gives up, let go, moves on and forget.

                Tonight as I write this and tears spills, I promised that this is the last time I will cry because of you. I will pour my heart out and it will be over! That I promise. I deserve better than wait for you to loved me back. It is easy said than done. But I will get by the soonest I can.

                I have loved you long enough and it hurts. Saying goodbye is the only way I see to change life forever. I don’t want to be stupid anymore. I should and ought to stop this love insanity.

                I thank you for all the memories and friendship shared. I am grateful that for a fleeting moment, you did loved me too though it is not enough for me to keep you for forever. It does not matter anymore and anyway. I am contented that I once met you.

                I hope someday, somehow, when our path will ever cross again, I already found my own happiness. By then, I hope that I can say that I am thankful that I never have you.

                Goodbye to you, my soul beloved. Be happy for me as I try to be happy for you. I must go on with life and forget you. Time will come and heal all wounds. I guess, this is really is it. Saying goodbye is the best for our happiness. But always remember that I truly did love you once in my life. 

             

...A FINAL GOODBYE...

Looking at the gloomy night sky
Tears won't fall, I hardly try
Heart feeling empty
Soul broken with no pity

I loved you for so long
But here I don't belong
Finding the no courage to fly
It is time to say goodbye

Life isn't fair
Love has its nightmare
Though it scars my heart
I must go and part

Forgetting is an uphill dread
Time and fate waiting ahead
I will have to get by
But now, this is a final goodbye

A Heart Saying Goodbye...

In love with the past
Time still fly so fast
Heart feeling blue
I have to finally let go

It is hard not to cry
Yet, i have to say goodbye
Holding on is useless
So staying is needless

Tired of hurt and pain
Your love I won't ever gain
Everything is a fantasy
Got nothing of what is reality

Leaving is not the easiest
Moving on is the hardest
Forgetting is the greatest
Just saying it is the simplest

Stolent Moment !!!

Stolen glances I caught
Smiles we fought
Walking under the moonlight
Sending waves of delight

Fingers perfectly entwined
Lips touch to unwind
Sweetness it lingers
Happiness it offers

Hearts at stolent moment
Plea of forever is a torment
Love with one desire
Freedom playing in lyre

Loneliness it perish
Happiness to cherish
So near, yet so far
Hardly love is to ajar

Love in Mystery

Dearest love
Mystery it lub dub
Heart and soul to tame
Afraid everything is just a game

Mind so confused
God no courage to refused
Eyes it intrigues
Strangely deep within it digs

Forever is a pledge
Siren in mysterious knowledge
Sincere of a promised security
Full of fatal intensity

You, mysterious love
Sent by stars from above
One wish it granted
Love surely is undivided

Chaste Seduction...

Silently lethal
One look and it is fatal
In the sound of love, it flee
In chaste seduction, it's free

Creeping deep unknowingly
Heart in love suddenly
To deny, it tried
Yet, true love does it cried

If it isn't love, what it is?
To admit is a distance kiss
Damn the playfulness
The mind it confuses

Eyes sparkling like the stars of the night
Love for a forever flight
It is definitely certain
Just that the heart is uncertain

...Love Betrayed!

Air of mystery
There's pain and fury
Feelings no one can explain
Madness rolling in plane

Had fate played a trick?
Anger comes in conflict
Beauty vibrant with rage
Coldness filled like a cage

Tears threatening to fall
Furiousity bouncing like a ball
Bitterness so tender
Sadness doomed forever

Betrayed and battered
Love? The heart ever wondered
Couldn't find the way to forgive
Foolish if the heart would ever believe

I say WOW!!!

Tonight, i just proved how illogical and shameful can a person get! 

Here's the thing! Fair Play doesn't only exist in football. It is always a glaring part of every competition, may it be in sports, game show, talent contest or reality show. And fair play doesn't only means being fair but also includes respect, discipline and sportmanship!Virtues that all players and supporters should lived by. I don't need to digest all the rules to understand how the game is played!So, don't make me feel and look stupid. With my 23 years of living and learning the lessons of the world, my wisdom is much more advance than yours!So, before you lecture me, why not learn simple logic and analogy first? 

It's a shame that for somebody who deeply know the nature of competition doesn't know where fair play should exist. Most of all, doesn't know the meaning of accepting defeat and respecting the winner. If that is the case, YOU ARE ONE DEFINITE BOBO! 

Also, for someone who talks a lot about respect and crab mentality, it's ironic for you to do the same. Somehow, it is like slapping your face hard enough by your own hands and eating your very own words!Boy, be consistent enough to advocate respect and disgust crab mentality!You really make me laugh out loud...I think you need some self check!You are too childish to judge others when you, yourself can't even fix what is wrong with you. 


No wonder why the world is full of losers. You is one great example!Boy, you still have a great deal to learn about the world especially about winning when you want to succeed in your dreams and in life. A big good luck to you then!c: 

Guilty In LOVE

Wishing for one rare chance
Broken at a mere glance
When Cupid casts an arrow
Heart in an instance mellow

Love so near yet so far
Staring at a distance star
You need to be tame
Pain in its fame

Wanted to let you know
Wonder if fairytale can come true
Love befall
Hope it still stand tall

Why can't you love me back?
Having you is a chaste luck
Love of no hue
Guilty of falling for you!

TREK OF LOVE

“Love is all about taking risk – always and forever.”

            Let’s face it, falling in love is an uphill climb. At some points, we find ourselves wanting to give up because everything is already hurting. We want to slide down to safe ground. We don’t want to get hurt and experience the awful feeling of pain and loneliness.

           Yet, we also need to remember that in love, IT IS NOT ALWAYS A BED OF ROSES. Pain, loneliness and sacrifices are part of it to finally say happiness is achieved.

           Falling in love is a continuous process. It is a cycle that needs to be nurtured. Everyday is a new chance to discover new spice to make love stronger and timeless.

           We need to keep climbing the hill and it is only when we reach the top that we will know if it was worth all things we gave up for the trek of love.

           Many out there are afraid to fall in love. Few already experience how notorious love can be. Some experienced heartbreaks that they unfortunately cannot take causing them to give up and stop loving.

           Nostalgia takes place.

      Trust in love is gone.
      Sad it is, it is TRUE.

      Not all of us true exist.

      But, hey…………

      There is a fine line between love and happiness. It is just a matter of taking some risk to cross that line. We might fail and get hurt. Yet, we can at least say we did try to find our own happy ending.

      In the first place, in the world of love, there is no certainty as well as guarantee. It is always having the brave heart to make a decision to take risk in falling in love.  It is all about having the courage to know is the heart is all for it.

     Once get hurt because of love?

     Com’on! Don’t sulk.

     Pick yourself up and continue to believe that there is always a chance for all of us to have our own true love.

     Don’t stop believing.

     Always fall in love.

     For happiness to exist, all of us must take that rough road and face the challenges and obstacles along the ways. The journey to find happy ending and one true love is not easy as it seems. It needs a lot of effort, time and taking risk.

     Now, the challenge is: HOW BRAVE ARE YOU TO TAKE THAT RISK?

     Me!? I say, I am brave enough. I might fail yet who cares? I believe that one day, I can truly have my one true love and happy ending.

...SUMMER LOVE...

Underneath the summer sun 
True love begun 
Running wild and free 
It is easy to see 

That one fleeting kiss 
Changing the summer bliss 
Feeling the gentle summer breeze 
Add fires to the love that blaze 

Listening to the summer song 
In the heart loves belong 
The summer sky is clear blue 
Letting love shines in the summer hue 

Entwined in true loves embrace 
Summer love is the case 
Two hearts that come togerther 
Wishing in the summer night to last forever

...NONSENSE SAKE...

I wonder if you will ever learn 
For you to care is all I yearn 
Hurt is what you gave me 
Your so blind to see 

Did you ever truly cared? 
Lies I got scared 
In the absence of your love 
I ask peace from above 

Yes, I do miss you 
Yet, I got no clue 
I am tired and sick 
Giving up is what I pick 

Loving you is a mistake 
I fall for nonsense sake 
It will hurt I know 
But I have to let go

...HEARTBREAK...

I spend so many breaking night and day 
Thinking the time you went away 
My heart drown in deep sorrow 
Crying like there's no tomorrow 

How stupid I am? 
I feel so damn 
Believing for love to last forever 
My heart chooses not to be clever 

Love is so strong 
How did it go wrong? 
Now, I was left with nothing but pain 
Walking alone down the memory lane 

Lies and deceit right from the start 
What it takes to break my heart? 
Will it ever be whole again? 
Or bitterness it will gain?

...DEAR DESTINY...

One gloomy night 
Stars not shinning so bright 
Setting by the window pane 
Feeling all the loneliness and pain 

My heart only got one desire 
Happiness that blaze like fire 
Aloof and rare 
No one seems to care 

Tears unshed 
Hearts that bleed 
This isn't funny 
Why love can't be easy? 

Dear destiny, 
I don't want to be lonely 
Please be with me 
And make me real happy!

...hey, my prince...

Love is in the air 
The feeling so flare 
Love so true 
Heart will never be blue 

Dream of a fairy tale 
Now, it is for real 
Prince charming, my dear 
Happiness is really here 

Beyond eternity in my heart 
You and me will never part 
Forever won't be enough 
Yet, loving you won't be rough 

It feels so good 
To love you I would 
It's a promise I will keep 
In my soul it runs deep

...LOVE SYMPHONY....

Love soft and warm 
Swoon over to your charm 
From dream to reality 
You steal his heart finally 

Love pure and true 
Pretty as you 
Melted to the magic of beauty 
Smitten until eternity 

Love strong and honest 
Love is at best 
Passion so sweet like honey 
Destined to be sunny 

Love is happiness and forever 
Like the symphony of answered prayer 
Love springs to everywhere 
And you found yours to care

Life's Destiny

"Destiny is to accomplish something."---MY SASSY GIRL

         Many of us are hopeless romantic that believes in DESTINY. I am one of the many. Few ‘hesitantly believe. Others simply don’t. But what it is, one thing is sure: DESTINY IS OUR FUTURE. ” It is our future that lays down the law of our today and influence by our yesterday.” It is the product of every decision made. It is an imagination made into reality. Sometimes, it is a wish or a desire we achieve to have. What we are today is our destiny from yesterday.

Destiny is FATE!

Destiny is FORTUNE!

Destiny is FUTURE!

Each one of us has our own finale in this drama with the title LIFE which I call “MY DESTINY!” God is our director, we are the actors and the world is our stage. The outcome of our stories is based on our faith with our Director, on how good enough we give our best to come up with the best act and how we decide to play it with all our hearts.

Destiny is something we can control. It is like that we can be what we want to be because we simply desire to be who we are. No one dictates our future. There might be some influences that can affect our decision making. Yet, in the end, IT IS ALWAYS US, ALONE, who made the decision.

Destiny is the choices we made in life that determines our future. It is not a chance made but a moment of decisions shaping our own ending. It is not a thing to be waited for. But, it is a thing to be achieved for.

”Actions are the seed of fate deeds grow in destiny.”--- Harry S. Truman

Life a person we are, our destiny are unique and can’t be compared to others. It is a kismet of our past reflected in our future. In its own way, our destiny molds our own happiness and success. It provides us something that is beyond our wishes. It gives hope to our dying faith and love.

DESTINY IS BEING THE PERSON OF OUR YESTERDAY, OF WHO WE ARE TODAY, and OF WHO WE ARE GOING TO BE TOMORROW.

“It is not the stars to hold our destiny and not to be avoided.”---William Shakespeare.

Destiny is something to be desired and not to be avoided. It is having an ending of where we need to be. It is what we deserve the most in our life.

“Every man has his own destiny. The only imperative is to follow it, to accept it no matter where it leads him.”---Henry Miller.

     

                      

WONDERLAND!!!!

“Everything is relative.”- The Nutcracker

      Reality and fantasy comes side by side --- that if we all believe in every dreams we have, we can make it happen! Nothing is impossible with the heart that truly trust and love.

      Most of all, the real magic comes with our hearts own desires. Yes! It wasn’t easy to just believe. But sometimes, our only escape to harsh reality is through dreaming and believing in some fantasies that our imaginations created since our childhood years. We never did outgrown those childish moments we all have. Matter of fact, no one can deny or say that he or she never dream to visit the wonderland. Should

      We should all not be afraid to take risks. Life is a matter of being risky to achieve every dream we make. It challenged everyone with the question, “HOW WOULD YOU KNOW IF YOU NEVER TRIED?”

      It is about being tough and brave in this gigantic world wherein everything is a battle of surviving! Chances come only once and what is beyond our reach is in fact the one closer to our hand.

      The sad thing is, we neglect to notice it. We are so busy fooling around and staying focus to those things that are not meant to be ours. In the end, we face failures. We regretted the fact that we let one opportunity slipped away when it was within our reach. Worst, we just tend to give up and never did try again. We live in a misery and with the shadow of the dark pass that we had. Simply, life becomes miserable.

      Well, in all of those negative things that we encounter with life, all we need to do is believe with what our heart’s crave the most. Fairies, magic wand, wishing well, wishing stars, gypsies and genie in the battle might not be true. What is real is the ability of our heart to make a wish and believe. We also, have our minds that creatively bring us to wonderland.

      When there is no harm in trying, it is also logical that there is no harm in believing with what we truly yearn in our lives. After all, LIFE IS A BATTLE BETWEEN REALITY AND FANTASY --- that there is a thin line between what is real and what is fiction. Now, the dare is, “are you valiant enough to crosses the line?”

      Sometimes, our trip to wonderland helps us decide what we truly want with our life. And when we wake up, we finally found our own happiness and contentment.

      HAPPY DREAMING, EVERYONE. SEE YOU ALL IN THE FANTASY LAND THAT WE ALL CREATED IN OUR MINDS AND BELIVED IN THE MAGIC CREATED BY OUR HEARTS’ OWN DESIRES. MAY WE ALL ACHIEVE WHAT WE YEARNS THE MOST ONCE WE ALL WAKE UP AFTER A BEAUTIFUL DREAM.

...spice of life!

For life to be meaningful and sweet, all ingredients must be there and should blend well!NOT HALF COOK BUT NOT TOO OVERCOOK. 

Once in awhile, sacrifices and pains must be part of life for happiness to taste really delicious. Love adds color to life. Music and laughter makes everything alive. Successes, honors and achievements makes life worth fulfilling. But of course, there should be hardship, courage, knowledge, confidence and attitude to make everything perfect! 

Life sometimes could be unfair, nasty and unbelievable battle. Yet, with those, life become challenging!It is just a matter of winning every battle with all efforts so that no regrets in the end if ever failures raises. 

There's too the people life gives to the heart to care and dear. Arguments, quarrels and fights make life stronger and intelligence grow. 

Life indeed is meaningful, unique and has different walks to different folks. It is still depends to an individual on how to make life worth living for with happiness and contentment! 

Live life to the fullest! 
Live life without limit! 
Live life like there's no tommorrow! 

Why? 

Simple. 

LIFE IS SHORT!

...life's beautiful mantra!

"Another day to tackle to make life ahead!Won't be an easy dare with happiness no one can ever compare. CHEERS TO GOOD LIFE AND PURE HAPPINESS!" 

Start every additional day of life in a positive note. Say a little thank you for another beautiful day added. Don't forget too the prayer for guidance all through out the day. 

Today, everyone should wear their sweetest and sexy costume---SMILE :) c: ^_^... No one can guess who you will meet along the way towards the end of the day. He or she can be that person you are waiting to arrive all your life. Or might be someone who will be your key to a successful career! Might be that an ordinary individual you meet today but will stay with you until beyond forever. 

Everyday is an opportunity to wake up and start a new. A chance to forget all the negatives and failures of the past. Another moment to continue building towards fulfillment and happiness. It won't be easy. Yet, life is a battle we need to survive. It is a priviledge given to find purpose and meaning in this jungle everyone called WORLD. 

Along the way, there will still be failures, sacrifices and pains. Yet, those should not be a hindrance to continue facing every obstacles life gives. Those should be an inspiration to stay strong and courageous. Afterall, LIFE ISN'T A BED OF ROSES AT ALL TIMES! 

Be brave! 
Be happy! 
In everything, life has a lot in stores to offer. 

HUNT FOR YOUR OWN HAPPINESS TODAY EVERYONE!

WELCOME 2012...

Today is the first day of 2012.

We perfectly say good bye to 2011. But despite that, memories made last year will remain forever in our hearts and minds.

 Lucky me to have a very memorable 2011. One year in my life that I will never ever forget. It is a year of success, fun, and happiness. It is when I gain a lot of good friends and acquaintances. It is when I enjoy my life to the fullest. It is when I see my mother once more. It is when I successfully achieve one goal of my career.

Yes! There are struggles and not so easy challenges along the way. The good thing is, I manage to conquer it all. Life becomes fulfilling after. Tears filled my eyes sometime. Heart breaks my heart felt. Disappointments I learned to accept. Failures that gave me good lessons I will never learn if not committed.

All those are part of my 2011.

And, here is 2012.

Another year to face!

The question is, “I AM READY???”

Yes! I am!

I am ready to face 2012 and ready to make good memories. This is another year that I will tackle wholeheartedly. I don’t know or guess what will happen the next day. I live one day at a time. Make good memories and make the most of each day. This is yet the first day today. Who knows what will happen for tomorrow or the future in general. The important thing is, I am ready to face whatever waits in me in the future.

Life is full of surprises. Random things are good compared to plan ones. Aside from that philosophy, I have good friends and good people that will make my 2012 unforgettable.

I am excited for the new challenges that I will be facing for this new year of my life. I just hope for more success in my career, friends, job and family. Of course, a single lady like me always wishes for a love life. I hope,  this year, I will finally meet my prince charming that will make me forget that once in my life there is someone who broke my heart on a Christmas day.

2012 is the year that I will discover my path and make my dreams come true. It will not be easy. But, I will do all my best to make everything happen and make my life full of happiness. It is me who makes my future. I also have my precious Savior that will lead my way. In His guidance, I know my 2012 will be a tremendous one.

What excites most for this year are the new people that I will be meeting, the new friendship that I will be making, the new memories that I will be building and the new achievements that I will be having. Small or big, it doesn’t matter. What I count is the laughter and the happiness my heart feels. It is what I look forward the most.

And whatever bad memories I have last year will remain in limbo. All doesn’t matter anymore.

Today, I will start making good memories. Positivism must work and be more visible in my life for this year and onwards. I don’t care about people who hate me or doesn’t like. They can hate all they want or dislike me all they want. I will not be affected. I have also the people who love me in every way I am. I am not perfect in the first place. If they can’t accept it, it is not my problem anymore. I am not living my life to please everyone.  But to those who can appreciate my persona, I thank you.

The road to success is not straight. There will always be a curve of failures, a loop called confusions, speed bumps with friends, red lights called enemies, and caution light in the comfort of my family. Along the road, suddenly I got flat tires in my job or career but I have a spare called determination, an engine called perseverance and a driver called God, I know, I will make it to my destination called SUCCESS!

 2012 is a new year for a new hope, dreams, chance, love, happiness, success, lesson and just a new year for everything. It can also be a continuation of a happy last year. It all depends in me how to make it a new year I want the most. The philosophy that I should be bringing for this year is to take every chance in the way because some things only happen once. Regrets are part of life but it is not a good thing to experience especially if there will be no chance to undo it. Most of all never sacrifice for who I am just to please others. It will not make me a happy person and I know it will hurt people who love me for who I am before and today.

What happen in last year will remain in last year, except for those good and positive things. What is over must remain that way. What has been told should never be retold. Otherwise, time can’t do its job to move on.

Happiness is just everywhere. It can even be found in the darkest time of life. It is just a matter of how to make everything in a happy mood.

KEEP GOING!!! This is already 2012…HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!